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| I am fascinated with how people cope. Coping is the healing process
after something has happened that brings us to depression. After a big
tragedy like Hurricane Katrina that affects a mass of people world wide
or something that hits closer to home that only affects you and those
close to you like a loss of a close family member.
You live your life angry that it happened to you and that nobody else
feels the same pain as you do. You’re all alone and don’t think, don’t
feel like you can ever go back to how you were before. The hurt just
dwells too deep inside of you that it feels like a storm of emotions
encircles around inside of you and the rain clouds will never go away.
Something has gone missing in your life so important that it feels like
a part of you is missing and you start to look for answers, ways to
fill that void. A lot may go to drugs and alcohol while others will try
ignoring it, but this just creates more despair in your life as after
you come back from your quick fix, you’re back to point one in the
vicious cycle.
And all people can tell you is that “Time will heal
your heart” for they have nothing better to say and in your grief you
dismiss it, but soon you start believing them and you begin to heal. It
may take varying amounts of time for each person, but it will happen
eventually. As if you broke your good arm, you’re forced to learn how
to eat, write, throw etc. with your other arm, your weaker arm. It’ll
frustrate you and there will be many failed attempts where you feel
like giving up but soon you’ll figure it out.
Everything will
eventually work itself out and you’ll be stronger for it because you
had to fight your way back, but no one will know the emotional struggle
you had to face. Your heart is like a beautiful crystal-glass vase,
although you’ve never thought of yourself that way people around you
notice that your soul is beautiful. As it gets broken your heart, your
vase drops and shatters. It’s broken yet still beautiful. As you piece
it together it won’t be perfect but it will go back to its same shape
and form with cracks and holes but still together. The void will still
be there, they will always be missing from your life, however you’ve
figured it out, you’ve learned to adapt. | | |
| "...if this isn't love, this is the closest i've ever been Do you think we have a chance tonight? as streetlights sing on Audrey's song..."
I'm listening to Anberlin, love that band.
I went to see that "Last Kiss" movie with Merry, I was so afraid it was gonna be a chick flick, but it had Zach Braff (is that how you spell his last name? is that even his last name? haha) it was a chick flick but it was a trendy type chick flick. Like a movie that trendy people watch...there were boobs. It was an Italian remake, it had it's funny moments, but it was too long and things were left without closure. Oh well it was just alright to me, I thought it was gonna be another Garden State. Not quite as good.
I leave for college in two days, I feel strangley not nervous about it. I've packed up most my clothes. All that there really is left is my guitar/amp, blankets/pillow, and computer. I'm a minimalist when I pack up things. | | |
| this movie will be EPIC!
http://www.filmwad.com/first-5-pages-of-transformers-script-1028-p.html
^first 5 pages of the Transformers movie script!^ Transformers more than meets the eye.... | | |
| whoever went to the Anberlin/Emery show last night rocked! and
Jonezetta stole the show. I'm sorry but they were the best band there.
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| like black velvet
you put the stars back in the sky
my navigation skills show that you and I are aligned
when my mind isn't starring off into the shoreline blind
you inhaled the fog that is my pain and sorrow into your lungs
and I find that lonliness was what I felt all along
like your love is stealing me from lonliness
and it's you I believe that puts the stars back in my eyes
-Paul Chen
note: inspired by Put back the stars by Blindside so if anyone's like
dude that line is like stolen from Blindside. I'll admit it, that one
line is just amazing.
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